Pawn Stars‘ Rick Harrison stated he “second-guessed” all the pieces following the loss of life of his son, Adam, who died from a drug overdose at 39 on January 19, 2024, in Las Vegas, Nevada.
Showing on In Depth with Graham Bensinger, Harrison opened up about dropping his son underneath such tragic circumstances, revealing how he nonetheless lives with the grief and “thinks about him each day.”
“In his twenties, he had drug issues. I imply, God, I put him in rehab so many instances and each time he’d be doing nice, after which he would simply fall again,” Harrison shared. “I imply, you’ve heard the identical story from 1,000,000 individuals, and it obtained actually, actually unhealthy, and apparently, it wasn’t heroin… he obtained some Fentanyl. It killed him.”
Harrison admitted he continually wonders what he may have completed in another way, saying, “Whenever you lose a child, you second guess f****** all the pieces. It’s like, ‘May I’ve completed this? May I’ve completed this? May I’ve completed this? And it’s prefer it goes via your mind continually. There’s not a day that goes by I don’t [think] about him.”
When Bensinger requested what particularly it’s Harrison thinks about, the fact star replied, “May I’ve completed one thing totally different? I imply, I believe I did all the pieces proper. You simply sit in your head, ‘What if I did this? What if I did this?’ You realize what I imply? What if I simply grabbed him, f****** locked him behind my truck, drove him to Oregon… I imply, you have got 100 issues undergo your thoughts. There’s nothing worse than dropping a child.”
Harrison revealed Adam’s drug issues had been happening for years, recalling a time when his son “broke into” his home. “I figured possibly if we put him in jail for 2 months, possibly it’ll clear him out, however he simply went straight again on it,” he stated.
“You attempt to give him robust love, however, God, you simply by no means see the OD coming. You need to give them robust love and all the pieces, however, f***, I by no means thought that may occur. It’s laborious. There’s no f****** instruction ebook with youngsters. They’re all totally different fashions.”
Harrison stated he copes with the loss by remembering “the great instances” and specializing in his different two sons, Jake and Corey, and his 4 grandchildren.
“Recognize what you bought as a result of it’s not you’re not at all times going to have it,” he shared. “I spend as a lot time with my youngsters as I can. I speak to all my youngsters on the telephone nearly each day. I really like my youngsters, love my grandkids. Take pleasure in life. I imply, I actually know guys that’ve obtained 10 instances as a lot cash as me, and I do all proper, which might be f****** depressing.”
He added, “It’s straightforward to get pleasure from life. It truly is. Simply don’t be across the individuals which might be depressing and simply get pleasure from life with your loved ones and your pals and all the pieces. It’s actually it’s not that arduous to be completely satisfied.”
Harrison proposed to his girlfriend, Angie Polushkin, earlier this month at Casablanca Valley in Chile. “She stated sure!” he wrote on Instagram alongside a photograph of the proposal. Harrison has been married and divorced 4 instances beforehand.
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